Diary of a phobic. Cansadaaaaaa
Today I made another test on Psychopathology, Assessment and Treatment of Ansiedad.Creo that has not gone very wrong, but the note will tell.
The case is that I jodería suspended after the hell, heaven I've lived for this course.
is curious to look into yourself.
patient one hand, on the other "future therapist" as far as I myself am my own subject matter and active subject on the other hand, that being aware can interfere with treatment, not because I tell the psychologist, but because I know this is wrong or this is so. According to the current
Cognitive-Behavioral, a phobia is created by classical conditioning that is that anyone can have one, you just need to associate two stimuli and shit! and you're fucked.
cockroach I associate with fear, panic and terror, as I thought I could die with only the presence of una.Seguro this is ridiculous but it is the basis for panic attacks and when you live it does not fucking funny.
Imagine that you are in a real situation in which your life was in danger, as you would be?? Fucking truth?
not just speak of fear, I mean activation physiological (hyperventilation, chest tightness, tremors, dizziness, tachycardia, itching, hot and cold sweats, freezing and many more ....)
All this without forgetting the cognitive, for my cockroach was a threat, although it is but now is aware, before it was irrational and believed he was everywhere because he was stronger than me and wanted to hurt me, it's funny but it gave a human faculty (consciousness or intention), she wanted to hurt me so I felt attacked helpless without the resources to face it because when I saw one or was so paralyzed and could only run, run and run and get away as possible from the place where he had seen. Evacuating
flee as if it were a murderer, just fearing for my life, believing that all my symptoms I could take to heart.
People do not know what he speaks when he says phobia and is important because do not have to know it, so I tell it because somehow I want all who read this, knowing utiliceís that word of what you speak.
Everyone is afraid, but not everyone has a phobia and if so (for there are many people who are) must understand that only "serious" when it interferes with a person's life.
And to think that anxiety disorder is more ligth, I do not live or think as agoraphobics, phobia social, obsessive-compulsive hypochondriacs, those with panic disorder, those with eating disorders (anorexia, bulimia), generalized anxiety ... etc should be a real hell.
Two and half years I incubator, making it grow, becoming uncontrollable, disabling ... knowing that the only way to fix it was to expose the "phobic stimuli, which it sounds like this book, and like all phobias NEVER do that .
And I resisted the idea, using all the resources and strategies that I had at my disposal, but that was not enough, the mere anticipation that could be produced the same effect on me, not to mention images invasive and intrusive thoughts that assailed me and arrived the day I did not want to be home and the day he ceases to sleep because my dreams were coming, was the only place where I was safe, where I could rest my mind and my weary body, where there was no consciousness, but even there it slipped and I filled my life and stop living in my living running away from them that were within me, in my head.
then decided I could not go on like this, that my life was hell and that it had escaped my control so I went to the psychologist (thing that I regret in my life, without doubt the best decisions I taken.
and now after tears, suffering and struggle my life has changed a lot, and Victor took months autoexponiendome my psychotherapist or as I said roach killer, said to have advanced a lot and very fast.
I know, and in part for this Psychopathology, EVALUATION AND TREATMENT OF ANXIETY, so now I jodería suspend this review because this subject I have not studied, I've lived.
I've finally broken the secrecy in which I saw in a way enclave, this was me for two years and fought for longer.
have long wanted to talk about my phobia but I had no strength to do now that I have assumed many things, I feel good about not hide the world and I hope that my experience serve for something.
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